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It's no secret we all doubt ourselves sometimes.
Whether it's taking a test, trying out for a sport, or giving a presentation at the office.
I'm about to take—in my opinion—one of the biggest tests of all.
I think everyone knows that I'm pretty darn excited to get married.
In fact, that's quite the understatement, but I don't have the words to tell you just how excited I am, you'd have to see it in the way I look at Daniel. There just aren't words.
But that doesn't mean I don't doubt myself.
I don't doubt the love I feel,
the fact that we're best friends,
that I want to spend the rest of my life with him,
that someday I want to be the best mom ever to our children,
and that he is the one for me.
But sometimes I worry... am I good enough?
I don't have any of the ingredients of a soon-to-be wife.
I don't cook. We know that.
I don't sew, or clean (though I'm really good at it), craft, decorate, or do anything that even closely resembles any of these good qualities.
In addition to all of those aspects, I don't always stack up in other areas, either.
I'm cranky. I'm critical. I am quick to get defensive. I try to pick fights. I get sad and cry on bad days.
Who would want that?
I know most of those things come with time. The cooking, the decorating, the learning it all...
... but right now... I keep going back to those words, "good enough."
And then, as I type this, I am reading back over my words and think about how ridiculous I'm being.
I am good enough. Not only that... but I am more than good enough.
So, why do I do this to myself? This circular thinking? Back & forth, back & forth.
Because I'm me. And I worry. And stew. And lament. And fret.
The moral of this written thought pattern,
which finally just became clear (literally as I'm writing this right now),
is don't worry about being good enough.
You are more than good enough.
Be you. The rest will follow.